I wasn't too sure what I was going to do with myself this week and to be honest, I still don't.
I need to be with Him. It's kind of becoming ridiculous, honestly. I had some good time with Him this morning, continuing on in the Old Testament and rocking out to Crowders "A Collision" in the shower (I never want to shower music-less again).
So why this deep sadness? Is this intercession again? He's been showing me prayer a lot, and sometimes I get frustrated that I can't separate my own emotions from those He gives me (if that's truly what this is in the first place).
As of February 22nd, 2010, I am free, free of a ten year addiction to pornography. Ridiculous, right? It's not the same. Before, I felt like a lamb being led to the slaughter, something I had no control in, and now I have a say, I have a choice.
But please know in all of this, this isn't me. This isn't by my own power at all. God answered a prayer. Sitting in Greg's living room with my friends surrounding me in prayer (those physically present and those who interceded from afar), God did something big. I don't know exactly what, but I now know that I am awake after being dead, that I am a slave to righteousness and not sin.
just found out whose emotions I am feeling....wow.
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