His day

So, currently skipping chapel.
They said it was a worship chapel, so I decided to skip and spend some intimate time with my Creator. Kind of a one-on-one dealio. Which is part of the motivation for writing this blog, just to kind of express what God's been doing in my life.

Of course there is this:

Sometimes,
what I need
isn't what I want
But there's a reason it's what I need.
His reason.
It's what He wants for me
and what I need from Him.
Funny how that works.

And then there's also this.

Moses is me.
His Midian is my Wyoming
Egypt, Middlebury
Or at least I have faith
To displace what's left of me
To purge the rest
I can only take you
Where I have been before.
So now I need to go there
In order to come back to you
In order to stay
I must leave

Seriously haha! It may make sense, and it may not. But there's a reason I'm not being ridiculously blunt about the matter. Ask me. I'm more than happy to tell you what's going on.
P.S, if you see me this weekend, ask me why. I need to be reminded.

Changes...

Haha.
I wonder if anyone ever reads this?
That's ok. God does and I'm cool with that.
Thanks, by the way, for being awesome God. I really appreciate it, especially on days like today when the beginning starts out to be like crap and by the end, I cannot help but to smile in awe and wonder of You. You that created the stars that I so often enjoy when my head looks up to You.
Thank you for new friendships and old ones that are being rekindled. Thanks for the young voices crying out to you and saying things like "I think I need to find out who I am in Christ, so I'm going to do that, in the mean time letting God, not my peers, shape me." That's You. That's the Holy Spirit working wonders.
That's Freedom. The Freedom that only comes from you Jesus.
And Jesus. Why? I'll never understand so I should stop asking why. But then, if I accept I'm worth it in your eyes, is that being prideful? Who knows?
But, in response, a thank you beyond words is appropriate. Seriously.
You died for our sins. God loves us that much, YOU love us that much. Boo Yah! ( Y€ou know where that comes from. :) )
Just...let me keep my eyes on you, ok? Help me not to become distracted. I'm trying God, but not nearly hard enough. I think I'm going to use this for You, to You.
Goooood stuff.
ILAAY Jesus.

what i want vs what i need

Sometimes,
what I need
isn't what I want
But there's a reason it's what I need.
His reason.
It's what He wants for me
and what I need from Him.
Funny how that works.

Blessing

So, I was going to post a new entry, asking for prayer for finances. As in I have none.
Haha.
I have several things I need to pay for and I currently can't because the job situation isn't nearly as steady as I'd hoped for.

One of these things happened to be paying for my tuxedo for choir. I think it was $120ish that I owed. And it was due ASAP. We had to go pick them up and I'd been avoiding it like the plague because I simply didn't have the money to pay for it.

So fast forward to today. I get an email from Sue, the secretary, saying some "anonymous donor" has paid for my Tux in full. Who does that?? I am so happy. Just today I'd been praying for something. Anything to lighten the load, so I don't feel buried underneath it all.
And this happens.
Praise be to God from Whom all blessings flow. Wow.

Please

I wanted to write something deep and meaningful tonight about the people who comes into our lives.

This, instead, is me asking, begging, pleading and imploring you not to give up.

You know who you are. There are lots of you out there. I know life is hard, I know it's not fair and it seems God is sitting in His royal throne, looking at you with uncaring eyes.

But look closer....there are tears there. For you.
Please hold on with whatever strength left that you have. I know it may be you're hanging on by your fingertips, but please keep holding on.

1John 3:8b "The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the devil's work."

Please don't forget that. He is on your side.